I've been having these really odd and
long dreams lately. I don't remember all the details when I wake up, but they've felt long and they've felt very real.
Three nights ago, A and I were helping A's mom sell or rent an apartment. It was in this complex that was more like a campus with lots of grass and trees. For some reason we were making booklets to aid in our sale of the apartment and using photos of us in wedding attire. None of the photos were from our actual wedding, as we were traipsing through a wooded glen, but there was photo arranging, booklet assembly, talk of distribution, looking at it on the computer and discussing the plan to sell. It was very real.
Two nights ago, there was driving to or from Canada, a fork in a road, an easy path and a difficult path to drive on. For some reason, I think we were trying to get away from someone or something on the difficult path, but we ran into some very real driving obstacles and the bumps felt real. There were even toll booths!
Last night, the dream was chillingly real. I dreamed that a high school classmate had been shot. It was collateral damage to a drive-by shooting and very tragic. But the part that made it feel so real was that most of the dream was about finding out the news. There were rumors circulating on facebook, people posting questions and wondering what was going on and if it were real, people trying to get in touch with others for details. A lot of it seemed to happen on facebook. Of course, if this were real, it would be in the news and probably more certain, but it just felt so real.
The last time I remember having such vivid, weird and long dreams was a few years ago when I experimented with melatonin supplements in an attempt to force myself to get up in the morning. (As you can guess from my current lifestyle, I've had this problem for some time and can't seem to find anything that works.) I had to stop taking it because the dreams were too much for me. I think there were more nightmares. I have no idea what the dreams mean. Is it saying I've lost touch with people and should get back in touch on facebook? Is it as simple as a a choice between the easy path and the difficult path? Is this anxiety over wanting to find a great place to live? Does it mean I want to have another wedding photo shoot? No idea.